I've watched nearly every video tutorial there is and glanced through at least two or three art books. And now, it seems as if I'm not getting any further. I've been scribbling stuff in my sketchbook for the past couple months and it all comes out the same. I haven't improved.
I guess it could be that this is the height of my artistic level? Which is unfortunate, because you won't be getting any jobs with this kind of level. It was easy starting out when there were so many new things to pick up on that I didn't know before. I actually got the feeling that I was getting somewhere.
But now, there's no direction. I know everything I have to know, and it's not enough. I think I lack this kind of “three dimensional thinking” that a lot of artists speak of. I can't even draw the same face from two different angles, no matter how hard I try. And going back to digital, it feels like I've lost my touch for art. I can't even get a simple landscape done from start to end.
I had potential, yeah, but clearly not enough. I don't have the kind of determination that all the great artists had. Art shouldn't be something that requires this much effort and study, not for me. Surely I could sit, stare and copy a thousand images to study each and individual fold of clothing and maybe learn something from it, but do I want to do that? No.
Maybe art isn't for me. I'm not saying “this is it, I quit” but, ehh, I'm wandering dangerously close to that line. I've certainly given up on digital, that's for sure. I can't get anything done in digital anymore. It comes out so messy and blurry and . . . bad.
Life should be easier than this. I need some kind of difficulty slider.